Life is short

Last week or maybe last 2 week, I've got a news that a colleague of mine was admitted to HKL due to brain tumor. Actually we’re not that close since I’ve never work with her for a certain project. Just kenal gitu2 time makan, borak2, gurau2 je. She’s spent most of her time at project sites. We used to be in the same subsidiary but in different department.

At first, I thought she is older than me because she addressed herself as ‘Akak’ to me. So, aku pun memang panggil dia Kak Faezah sbb igt dia lagi tua until one day, when we’re having breakfast at our company café, she asked what year I was born. Then, we’ve found out that I’m older 1 year. Hahaha… motip??? Nak bagitau aku lagi awet muda la!

Ok… sambung cerita. From the other colleague, aku diberitau dia selalu sakit kepala. Tp igtkan sakit kepala biasa. So, dia just take acti-fast, pain killer and sort of things. Until one night, she collapses at her home. Masa tu dia dah kena sawan. Her husband and parents bawak gi spital Ampang. Dr diagnose that she got brain tumor and need an operation to get rid of it. Then, the next day, she was transferred to HKL.

At HKL, series of operation was done. Mula2 air dalam kepala dia blocking. Tebuk kepala. Then, operate sbb the tumor has grown fast and pressed her nerve. After that, another operation has done ntah utk apa lagi... aku lupa lak. Poor her…

After the last operation, she’s in coma. Tak sedar2. But still in stable condition. Last Monday, an announcement was made to inform us that she’s in critical phase. Sembahyang hajat dan bacaan Yassin dibuat lepas solat zuhur kat surau kompeni. On Tuesday, I went to HKL to pay her a visit. In the morning, we got news that her reading was increased from 25 (++) to 60 which is we thought she passed her critical phase.

Masa aku sampai, kitorang tak dibenarkan masuk. Semua kena kuar termasuk husband, kakak dan abang dia yang tgh tunggu dia. Dalam hati dah berdebar2. Tak lama lepas tu, the dr asked for her husband and closed relatives. Kitorang semua still tunggu kat luar ICU sambil berdoa everything gonna be fine. Then, her sis came out and we heard her conversation thru phone saying “Siti dah takde”. Haaa??? Aku terkedu disitu. Terasa cam tak percaya.
Kemudian, mak dia datang dan masuk tgk dia. Aku dah tak bleh berdiri. Siyes sedih! Lebih2 lagi bila mak dia kuar, then duduk sambil menangis. Kitorang pun ramai2 masuk. Tgk dia dalam ICU dalam keadaan wayar berselirat sungguh menyentuh hati. She’s gone already. Tak sangka sungguh! She’s just 31… yeah… betul la life is short!

Bila anak2 dia datang, I can’t hold my tears anymore. Sian sungguh tgk anak2 dia berlari excited nak tgk mak dia bila makcik dia panggil. Mula la aku teringatkan anak2 aku. Tak sanggup rasanya nak tgk anak2 ditinggalkan dalam usia muda cam tu.

Arwah dikebumikan the same day after Asar. Kekawan cerita, luruh airmata derang bila tgk anak2 dia menangis tak henti2 dari hospital sampai masjid. Dan meraung2 cakap “Nak mama…nak mama…”. Ya Allah… hanya ENGKAU yang mengetahui hikmatnya.

Itula…Ajal tak mengira usia, bangsa, darjat atau apa saja. Bila dah sampai masanya… tiada siapa dapat menghalang. Life is too short… live it to the fullest!

Al-fatihah untuk Siti Faezah. Semoga berada di kalangan org2 beriman. Amin.

Eid Mubarak

Salam Aidifitri to all….

Notice that this blog have been left un-attend for quite some time. Normal la if I got a long leaves to be utilized. 100% focus on raya thingy – of course!

Well, this year raya goes as well as other years. Except my lil Iqmy injured his toes due to his uncontrolled behaviors. It’ s almost torn out, but his expression like it’s just so so. Quite surprise when I checked on his toes condition. Hisshhh memang ganas la!

At night, we’d played bunga api and mercun which coz a hole on roof one of the villagers. Hahaha… lawak sungguh. Her doter came to us and complaint about her mother’s roof. Kitorang dah buat speku – mercun terbang ikut sini, cemana bleh berlubang lak atap rumah dia? Tak logikkkk.
Sekali my brother and cousin (the mastermind) go and have a check. Betul laaa… berlubang siottt! Tak pasal2 my cousin kena repair. Wakakaka… what a moment!

The cunnest pic we managed to captured

Raya theme is baby blue (ke?). We’re sweet as always. Hehehe…. But, Iqmy really spoilt the mood. He got cranky during our photo session. Habih tak cun gambar! Tension mak.
1 thing to highlight here, baju rayaku rerupanya ada plus minus 15 pasang! Tu pun ada satu tailor yang takleh harap – tak siap sampai ke hari ni. Nowonder why I sengkek by end of the month.

Deretan some of baju rayaku (adalah dalam 2,3 psg je sempat pakai). Tahun ni, gue giler kain cotton daaa...

And, I managed to do posa 6 again this year which was celebrated yesterday. Waa… what a victory! Sempena raya posa 6 jgk, I’ll be wearing baju raya to office until end of Syawal. Walllaaaa….!

Rusak ana punyer program…

My plan is to have sedondon clothes until raya ke-4. I already bought all the clothes as my planned colours which were settled before posa lagi. I love to wear the same colour with my family members as it’s not always we can do it pun. Time raya2 cam gini je la bleh buat. Sajer suker2

So, I gave my fabrics to different tailors, which I thought I can try which one suits me the best. Before posa hari tu, my sis Mc Na already inform me that we have to delete one of the tailor from our list since there’s some conflict between them. Actually tailor ni ada kena mengena ngan Mc Na. And this is not the 1st time I sent my fabric to her pun. Tp due to unforeseen circumstances, we have to find an alternative.

Masa tu, I already sent 2 fabrics to her. When Mc Na inform me about their conflict, I afraid that she might not sew my fabric tu. So, I did call the tailor and asked about it. I asked whether she can sew it as my size sbb sblm tu dia ada buat baju aku jadi besar gedabak! Kalo tak leh, aku cakap nak amik balik kain tu. Fortunately, she promised to finish it by raya. So, I was relieved. Oklah… kira lepas raya la banned dia. Hahahaha… sempat tu!

But, last week, Mc Na called me said that the tailor already sent the finished baju kurung Pahang and 1 fabric – un-sewed! What makes me upset is, the un-sewed fabric tu la actually the one that I planned to wear sedondon tuh! Urrghhh… marahnya. Her reason was takut tak kena pulak kalo jahit. Huh!!! Siot je!

Then, after that, my cousin lak texted me. She said that the tailor not capable sew the fabric I sent earlier. Ops.. before that, let me explain about the fabric. Actually it’s like Lycra yang org buat tudung tu. So, kainnye tebal dan agak licin sket. Not all tailor is capable sewing that kind of fabric.

The tailor introduced by my cousin ni tried to sew it, tp dia kata benang cam tak melekat kat kain. So, did surrender and asked me to buy another fabric in order to replace it. Again, that fabric la yang aku planned nak pakai sedundun tu jgkkkk! Uwaa… frust teramat siottt!!!

Last Tuesday, I went to fabric store kunun nak cari kain ganti. Tp pusing punyer pusing, I can’t find one. End up, balik without buying any!

Nampaknya, pakai je baju2 mana yang ada kat my regular tailor tu. Mintak2 ada lah yang kaler ala2 sama. Bleh la buat pengubat luka hati ku ini…. Uhuk…uhuk…

ANDAI INI RAMADHAN YANG TERAKHIR

Andai kau tahu ini Ramadhan terakhir,
tentu siangnya engkau sibuk berzikir,
tentu engkau tak akan jemu melagukan syair rindu
mendayu merayu kepada-NYA Tuhan yang satu

Andai kau tahu ini Ramadhan terakhir,
tentu sholatmu kau kerjakan di awal waktu,
sholat yang dikerjakan sungguh khusyuk lagi tawadhu',
tubuh dan qalbu bersatu memperhamba diri menghadap Rabbul Jalil
menangisi kecurangan janji
"innasolati wanusuki wamahyaya wamamati lillahirabbil 'alamin"
[sesungguhnya solatku, ibadahku, hidupku, dan matiku...kuserahkan hanya kepada Allah Tuhan seru sekalian alam]

Andai kau tahu ini Ramadhan terakhir
tidak akan kau sia siakan walau sesaat yang berlalu
setiap masa tak akan dibiarkan begitu saja
di setiap kesempatan juga masa yang terluang
alunan Al-Quran bakal kau dendang bakal kau syairkan

Andai kau tahu ini Ramadhan terakhir
tentu malammu engkau sibukkan dengan
bertarawih, berqiamullail, bertahajjud,
mengadu merintih meminta belas kasih
"sesungguhnya aku tidak layak untuk ke syurga-MU
tapi aku juga tidak sanggup untuk ke neraka-MU"

Andai kau tahu ini Ramadhan terakhir
tentu dirimu tak akan melupakan mereka yang tersayang
mari kita meriahkan Ramadhan
kita buru kita cari suatu malam idaman
yang lebih baik dari seribu bulan

Andai kau tahu ini Ramadhan terakhir
tentu engkau bakal menyediakan batin dan zahir
mempersiap diri...rohani dan jasmani
menanti-nanti jemputan Izrail
di kiri dan kanan lorong-lorong redha Ar-Rahman

Andai ini Ramadhan terakhir buat kami
jadikanlah ia Ramadhan paling berarti paling berseri
menerangi kegelapan hati kami
menyeru ke jalan menuju ridho serta kasih sayangMu Ya Ilahi
semoga bakal mewarnai kehidupan kami di sana nanti

Namun teman,
tak akan ada manusia yang bakal mengetahui
apakah Ramadhan ini merupakan yang terakhir kali bagi dirinya
yang mampu bagi seorang hamba itu hanyalah
berusaha bersedia meminta belas-NYA

Andai benar ini Ramadhan terakhir buat ku
MAAFKAN SEMUA KESALAHAN YANG PERNAH DILAKUKAN

Girls outing session

1. With Joan, Shiela and Mizan

It’s been a year since our last outing. Last year, Joan and Shiela treat me a lunch to celebrate my b’day. Actually, Joan and me has practiced treat each other years ago. But it’s going slow down this recently. Our time was packed with some other stuff so that we hardly arrange a date. Anyway, this year Joan initiates an email and invites us to join her.

In fact, Deng is in the loop, but she never respond to it. So we makes our own specu, she can’t join because of this and that. Biasak la… we got a lot of specu to make.

We had our lunch at Tony Roma’s @ Mid Valley. All the menus were ordered by Joan. Kitorang menurut perintah je. Melantak semua.

After around 2 hours been eating and boraking and gossiping, finally we make our moves. Since Shiela give me a lift, so kena lah ikut drebar nak gi mana pun. Firstly, she planned to go to PC Fair which was held at KL Convention Centre. But then we changed the venue to Low Yatt after a thought that PC Fair could be crowded.

So, we went to Low Yatt. Waa… jakun sungguh aku masuk Low Yatt. I can’t remember when was my last visit. Berzaman dah rasanya. Shiela looking for a LCD monitor, Joan – Selphy printer paper, while mine – no specific reason. Tp aku beli la jgk 8G thumbdrive.

We went back around 5. Thanks to Shiela for being my driver. As always… best woo naik Civic VTech!

2. With Mc Yah

A day before, she called me whether I can take a leave for the next day. My company rules and regulation – for annual leave, we have to take it 3 days prior. Else, it’d be EL. Tau la kan.. kalo EL ni tak cantik sket la.

But, her initiation really tempting! Shopping kat SOGO tu!!! And to make it more interesting, the last time I went to SOGO tu… adalah 4, 5 thn lepas! Mana tak tergoda mak!

So, nak jgk cuti esoknya, back from work, I went to clinic and manage to get an MC. Bravo!!! Konpem jadi gi SOGO!

Maka, the next day, while waiting for dear sis to confirm on the time (dia kena gi imigresen dulu nak buat passport utk anak kecik dia si Adam tu). Plannyer nak gi Hong Kong Disneyland lepas raya ni. Kawan tu dah beli lama tiket. So, tak sempat la wa nak join sekaki!

Ops.. sambung cerita, while waiting for her to call me, sempat tgk kat dapur. Ada roti, susu, telur semua. Esok dah start posa. Konpem berkulat je la roti tu. So, dgn gegeh, aku buat pudding roti. Hahahaha! Bleh la laki n anak2 I makan petang ni. Kununnnnn….

Then, she called. So aku pun pegi la stesen komuter. Naik komuter easier sbb tak yah nak harung jem bagai. My sis take a train at UKM whilst me at Kajang. 1st time try Pink Coach. Tp ada gak yang sengal. Dah tau utk pompuan, menyelit gak laki sorang 2.

@ SOGO, kebetulan ada sales koooo! Tp sblm tu melantak dulu kat Kyros. Then start mengusha. Actually I already bought all the clothes. So, tak de lah teruja sangat nak membeli. Tp my sis ni, mmg tak beli apa2 lagi. Haruslah minah tu soping tak hengat. Hari tu dia soping adalah dekat 800! Tu pun dia KIV dulu kasut Clarks. Kalo jadi amik, cukup seriban!

Aku? Hahaha… dah selalu soping, abih setakat seratus 2 je la. Tu pun dah letih mengekor minah tu pilih2 baju anak2 dia, rembat gak selai 2.

Sampai rumah around 4++. Malam tu Iqmy buat perangai nak tido pakai jeans. Huhhhh… sabar je la!

Jemaat ke Sabtu?

Ni cerita pagi tadi. Almost 1 month, aku sengaja gi keja lewat as my kompeni skang ni practice flexible working hour. To others la. For me, masuk kul berapa pun, time balik, sharp je aku balik. Miahahahaha!

So lately, dear hubby will go to work first instead of waiting for me. Jadinya, dia pegi keja, aku baru nak bangun tido. Maka, pada pagi tadi nan indah permai, dear hubby kejut suh gi keja, aku dengan mamai cakap.. okeh..okeh. Then sambung tido.

Pas tuh, Haiqal bangun. Kejut kan aku “Mama, bangun lah.. dah kul 7 ni.” Aku still cakap okeh… okeh… Lepas dia mandi, pakai baju sekolah siap, dia kejut lagi. Aku tanya “Haiqal nak gi mana ni?” Dia jawab “Nak gi sekolah lah.”

Dengan konfiden level yang tinggi aku jawab “Nak sekolah amenda nyer? Hari ni ari SABTU!” Maka, sebagai anak yang patuh, dia pun tukar baju tido balik, landing depan TV. (Bab ni patuh la sangat! Citttt!!!)

Tetiba, aku cam tersedar… eh betul ke hari ni Sabtu? Pikir2 balik… laaaaa… hari Jumaat lerrr… Kelam kabut aku bangun, mandi. Solat Subuh dah masuk kategori Subuh gajah rimau kerbau semua. Cecepat siap… suh Haiqal tukar baju sekolah balik. Tp budak tu dah takde mood. Tanak gi sekolah. Terpaksa la aku halal je dia cuti hari ni.

Dan… I arrived at office around 9.30. Fuhhh… sakses sungguh hari ni!

Pre-raya?

Ramadhan is around the corner. Then, Syawal will take place. So… everybody knows that it’s RAYA time! Usually, I’d prefer to do all the preparation as early as I can. Being only girl in the house, so all the preparation will goes as I want it to be. Hahaha… harus aku conquer semua!

At first, of course the preparation goes to the clothes for my dear kids. Tp yang tak bestnya kalo umo beza jauh ni, takleh nak beli pattern yang sama. Sorang dah masuk kategori remaja, sorang budak beringus lagi. Sungguh frustrated. But, there’s some clothes I managed to get the same for both of them. Ok la…

Then, it’s comes to our theme’s clothes for 1st day raya. If last year, dear hubby picked up the colours, this year, I just grabbed what I think is nice for us. Haishh… payah gak membeli sensorang. Takde penasihat langsung. Tp I’m pretty sure that it’s nice. Wait till we wear it then!

Normally, when I gave the fabric to my regular tailor, I’ll send a bundle of it. But, as time flies…. I’m kind of bored to wear only kurung. Kekadang nak gak try kebaya ke, kurung moden ke which is my tailor incapable of doing it. Normal la kan… tailor ni kalo expertise dia dalam kurung, dia tak pandai baju kebaya ke, fesyen2 ke. So, I have to find alternative then. Thank God that my cousin said she found a good tailor for kurung modens.

So, balik cuti hari tu, aku hantar kain more than 10 I guess. Let me count:
- Tailor biasaku – 8 pasang kut…tak igt seyh
- Tailor 1 – 3 pasang
- Tailor 2 – 4 pasang
- Tailor 3 (nak kena delete dari list pas ni) – 2 pasang

Adehhh… need to save from now for the upah after this. Ntah berapa riban la abis ni!

Okeh… cerita seterusnya…

Notice that my sliding door curtain never been changed from the 1st day of moving in, finally I made up my mind to find a new one. No wonder, why never come across my mind to change it. Rega nya… perghhhh!!! Giler mahal nak mampos!

Presenting.... my new sliding door curtain.

This is after the twist. Nampak tak depan tu yang cam tali tu? Nicer than put it at the back.

But, when I put it on… walllaaaaa!!!! Lawa siotttt! Berbaloi-baloi la walopon rega nya bombastic! At first, I put the one yang Nampak cam tali tu kat luar. Ye la… yang putih tu nak kena bukak. Instead of nampak sliding door terus, cover lah sket ngan yang berjurai2 tu. But, when dear hubby saw it, he asked me to swap it. Tali2 tu duk depan and yang putih kat belakang. Well…. I have to admit that his idea is better. It’s look gorgeous! Tak kira la perkataan tu agak melampau to address my curtain, tp aku sukerrrr!!!

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Semalam, baru beli handbag baru. Kunun utk raya, tp tak tau la kuat iman ke tak menahan nak memakainya sblm raya. Minta2 kuat la...